Still Waiting

Saturday, July 16, 2005

felt so lonely tonight.. my family went out early and i was left at home to do a project with two of my friends.. then they left for dinner at home.. and the whole house was mine.. with no dinner. argh.. didnt feel hungry even though i didnt eat lunch.. don't know why i didnt have any appetite nowadays. insomnia in addition too.

just came back from a trip to the coffee shop with my dinner.. finished it.. but i felt hungrier then before. so weird. the night is so cold..was raining a while ago. regretted coming out in shorts.. cos i almost freezed to death.. this weather... just made me feel like staying in bed, hugging my pillow as i curl up under my warm blanket. but i have too much work to do.. i almost lost all sense of time.. soon will be my birthday again.. i hate to get old but time will not stop for me.. so i just hope i'll be happy on that day.. and hope that nothing bad will happen.. *peace* i hope i'll be more hardworking and independent next year. not forgetting.. remain cheerful.

projects and homeworkS are piling above m head now. i'm not physically tired. but i dun feel hardworking. i know i need something, perhaps a life, but i havent got an exact answer on what i really wanted.

i've got no more tears to shed, i've got no more energy to work, i've got no more motivation for school, i've got no more strength to face the truth, i've got no more mood for fun, i've got no more space for love, i've got in me a living dead.

but i know i've got many projects and homework. and i know i've gotta sit for my promo's and A levels.

and i know i've got many more sighs in me that can never come out, they can only stay inside me and make me dull.

-when are you coming back? ;